i am the most horrible person alive and i ought to be flung into the sea.

i am a horrible specimen of a human being and i am disgusted with myself.
i know what it's like to be hurt by someone i care for, and i tell myself that no, i will never do the same thing.
and do i not do it?

no.

over and over and over and fricking over again.

wicked girl. i deserve not to be loved.