87 days from today

Counting down the number of days till I become Mrs. Clement Chua:

there are exactly 2 months and 27 days from today.

How do I feel about it?

Too many things. A little afraid, but mostly excited.

Very tearful at having to move out from the place I've called home for the last 18 years, even more so at the thought that I will no longer wake up to the familiar morning wake-up call of my dad that I've been so used to ever since I was in Primary school.

This has been my home for so long, in more than the physical sense.

I've played countless games in front of the TV on the Playstation with the baby sister in my teenage years over the holidays (we could spend weeks on end glued to the console just trying to finish up a game). Had so many pyjama parties with the cousins as we were all growing up. And when I was older, had endless sleepovers with Trina either in my room or hers, movie-marathoning or exploring the world of Azeroth in World of Warcraft. Pizza parties, very simple home-cooked dinners, the kampung spirit that still permeates my home since much of my family lives in the same estate.

I will miss all that home has meant to me, for sure.

Heck, typing the last few lines is already making me tear..!

But the future promises much, too, and I must not let nostalgia overwhelm me.

I just hope with all my heart that my - our - dreams: of pursuing our Masters education abroad, seeing the world together, designing and building the space we will call home in the future, and eventually having a family of our own - will not remain dreams.

In case you all were wondering where Snooze has gone... Nowhere!

Such a cutie ain't she!

I love scratching her. But being a cat, she's quite temperemental.

How does a colour palette inspired by sorbet-melon grab you?

Clem hated it, but I thought it was pretty cute :P

WIW:

 Chiffon top in duck egg green from the UK

Pants in rose from Hollyhoque

Brunch at City Hall one of the Sundays.

One of the best ways to spend a lazy Sunday.

(Other than going for a facial or a massage, that is.)

Vintagey outfit and curls for brunch.

(Both crochet outer piece and crimson midi skirt are from Hollyhoque)

Someone's looking pensive..

Our first taste of Bakerzin was that of a chocolate bun, and a bacon danish pastry.

Very yummeh stuff there ;)

Our beloved church bell tower by the evening light.

The wedding gift from Oli - a pretty bundle of books with nuggets of wisdom.

Our pictures together always turn out blurry / off-centre.

Nonetheless, two is still better than one.

Two months and twenty-seven days, love.

I suck at waiting

In the aftermath of AYD 2010, I find myself just sitting around, waiting for something to happen.
Waiting for my internship with Women's Weekly to begin, waiting for interviews to materialize, waiting for a job offer.

And I am not good at waiting.


I feel so restless waiting for news, so vulnerable, cos my fate lies outside my own hands. The knowledge that I've done everything I could and now, whatever happens is outside my control, is not easy to stomach, nor is it easy to live with. Every day I spend doing nothing feels like a day wasted, and yet I know that I should be savouring my days of freedom because I'll have my entire life to work away anyway. Post-exam freedom hasn't felt like I thought it would, in part perhaps cos I was so busy with AYD over the weekend. Then sent SPH magazines some writing samples yesterday, and can only wait with bated breath for good news.

A large part of my nature dictates that I put my chances at success down before anything else, so that if and when it really does turn out badly, I'll already be mentally and emotionally prepared for it. It's tough living like that though, cos I never imagine the best - always the worst. And this keeps my mood very subdued a lot of the time. I'm trying to change though, cos living under a constant black cloud of failure can't be healthy for anyone. So I'm allowing myself some leeway to imagine and hope for the best, tempered with a large dose of reality that there's this huge possibility that things won't go as planned or hoped for.

Some happier memories to help me sit through this period of waiting and hoping and praying, coming up!
Had the chance to slip out for a bit a while back while I was studying for my last exam to catch Harry Potter with Tri!! We were anticipating it for the longest time ever - and now we're anticipating the last movie more than ever hahaha. :D I miss my best friend, haven't seen her in a while! (If you're reading this, call me okay!! I don't know when you're home so I don't dare call lest I disturb!)

We were waiting very eagerly for our food after our harrowing drive through busy Orchard Road on a Saturday night!! Dinner at Fish & Co at the Heeren. 

My calamari ring :)

Super cheesy fish and chips - too jelat even for me!

Yes I actually ate this. Wish it had been more deep fried though.

I was munching on some popcorn - hence my hamster face hee

Woohooo Harry Potter!!!!!! 

We're such little girls at heart <3

Gonna go play some Sims now with the boyf before we head off for evening Mass. 

Enjoy post-exam life!!

**Edit:

OFTD

unique cut out top from Agneselle

black straight cut jeans from Mango

dusty lavender ballet flats from New Look 

Life post-thesis!

In the last two weeks since I last blogged, I've cleared two items off the list of four datelines I had to meet!
Thesis was the major hurdle jumped this semester so far. Now, I have just two more essays to write, before I face my final exam of my NUS life, and leave my undergrad life foreverrrr!

Need to get my head down and write my European essay by Thursday and then get started on the ideology one.

It's rather distracting though, cos I've been trying to do some job hunting / own article researching in the interim, PLUS, I'm still dizzy-headed from the knowledge that my thesis has been handed in and is history. I kinda know that it's gonna garner a lousy grade, but at this point I'm just too tired to care about something that's out of my control already. :/

Alrighty I shall get down to these in order of importance:
1) European essay
2) Ideology essay
3) Own article research
4) Set up fashion blog that is supposed to function as a portfolio
5) Send out freelance writing emails
6) Look for THE job



In the meanwhile, here're some backdated pics of my first outing to Orchard in a month last week, ever since I began to overhaul my sorry ass of a thesis.

This is what happens when you watch too many eps of ANTM back to back: 

You keep trying to sell products in your pictures.

Steak sandwich with caramelized onions and mustard!

Chili crab pasta that tasted pretty punchy, but the soft shell crab wasn't deep fried enough imo :(

OFTD: 

laced top from Hollyhoque

black bandage skirt from New Look

bag from Tianfenlan