am so oddly awake, and yet not really awake. didn't get to sleep much last night, which i reckon will make my flu drag on longer than it already has.. - 5 bloody days and counting! what kind of stupid bacteria lurks for that long inside me?

my ears are so annoyingly stuck and my head's fuzzy! ohmygoodness my left ear has finally unstuck itself.

going to the airport tonight to get Tri - she's coming back from Hong Kong today!

i was young, but i wasn't naive,
i watched helpless as he turned around to leave.
and still, i have the pain i have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury it,
if you tried.

after all this time,
i never thought we'd be here.
when my love for you was blind,
but i couldn't make you see it.
that i loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when i let you go.

i would fall asleep,
only in hopes of dreaming.
that everything would be like it was before.
but nights like this, it seems, are slowly fleeting
they disappear,
as reality is crashing to the floor.

after all this time,
why would you ever wanna leave it?
maybe you could not believe it.
-that my love for you was blind.
but i couldn't make you see it.
that i loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when i let you go.
*blind/lifehouse