Let it be.

The days are really slipping through my fingers, like fine silt-like sand, and I have no idea where the week has gone. The week that seemed to yawn ahead of me on Monday has compressed and fast-forwarded itself to Thursday and I am awfully, dreadfully behind on my studying - especially where Advertising is concerned.

I must not let my high score during the mid-term let me get complacent and assume that I'll do just as well for the exam, cos that will not happen by itself. I fear I'm on my way to falling into that trap, and I'm trying hard to fight my way out of the insidious trap of placid complacency. I know I'm not the best, far from it, and I need to keep reminding myself of how lousy I really am in most aspects, if only to push myself all the harder. I do admit, I tend to be slightly harsh on myself, but that's probably the way I function. But this method has bred a deep sense of insecurity and (perhaps even) a certain kind of self-loathing, which I suspect are not very healthy side-effects.. So many things I wish I could be, you have no idea. I pick on what I lack, hardly ever being grateful for the little (or what I perceive as little, anyway) I have, bewildered at why you would even waste your time with a nobody like me.. And I know this isn't healthy, this belittling of myself. And I try to recognise my strengths, try to see myself from your eyes - but I can't.

Times like these, when the odds threaten to overwhelm me (many things depress me at the moment: top two of which include my veryvery broke state after having paid for my accommodation and air/rail tickets for Europe, and my pathetic state of studying for my exams), I have to tell myself to let it be.

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& when the broken-hearted people living in the world agree,

There will be an answer,

Let it be.

For though they may be parted, 

There's still a chance that they will see.

There will be an answer,

Let it be.

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